Note: This poem was published in Rigorous, an online journal edited and written by people of color, in Volume 1, Issue 2.
I have not come here to compare notes
but to sit together in the stillness
at the end of the world.
Yesterday I asked you if you remember
that time we went to see the dinosaur
at that museum we both liked
And you said to me,
“You mean the museum you like, and don’t you mean
the whale? It was the whale.”
I nodded in agreement but I know it was the
Dinosaur, the biggest creature that ever
walked the Earth, now extinct,
made of petrified bones,
plaster and fiberglass, held together
by bits of steel and ingenuity,
Much like the world we live in, lived in,
made of the real and the fake,
the truth and that posing as truth.
A small army of billions built it
with love and hope and bits of genius
engineering, steel and grit,
sweat and tears, all the cliches that
We fall back on in times of
upheaval and profound change. And yet
the people keep on keeping on, forging a way
forward, moving out of the sticky
mud mess that
we got
ourselves into
in the first place.
They always make it out, patching up wherever
possible, with tape and glue,
perseverance, pluck and mettle,
And with the brilliance and smarts that creates
order from chaos, a fascinating interplay
of conflicting functions,
The kinds of minds and heart that is hard to come by
Nowadays.
We look at the bubble that holds the world,
sit and watch as the bubble is slowly collapsing
in, consuming itself, we sit
detached and waiting.
How are you feeling about all of this, you
With your big ideas and your glib tongue,
You with your poetry that is a witness to magnitude.
Your profundity bringing focus to the epic
that is, was?, the life of the world
Though the world was an accident,
its peoples an afterthought, formed
in the crevices of the gray matter that
may have been the drunken mind of an All-being
but could just as well have been a fluke,
an odd fish in the salt sea of nonsense.
What do you think is the legacy of this life,
your wisdom in these moments of death
and possible rebirth?
Like that time we were at that party and
they were all harping on about that book,
pretentious opinions falling off lips
like water down a fall, rushing to the
bottom, sinking to the muddy deep, and you said something,
A riposte that would have
shut it all down
If not for that explosion at the same moment
that had them running to the windows
to gape at the ruins of a truck and minivan,
Spectators of lives in ruination.
You didn’t say you wanted better, only
that you wanted more.
What did you mean?
No, don’t tell me.
I do not want to know.
I want to find out for myself
if there is a future.
I have not come to compare notes, or to listen
to you after all this time, I just
want to sit next to you, in silence, and
to hear the end, and wait for a new beginning
to come out of the ashes of the end of the world,
again.